I woke up fairly happy as always. I know I was processing stuff during the night because I didn’t have a restful sleep. I remember having conversations with God during the night and asking for light. It’s the only time that my mind is truly quiet. As I faced the tasks in front of me I felt the usual sense of ugh.
It seems to be inevitable: I get excited about some business project or other thing and start it and then my energy
leaves and I feel sucked dry. Almost like the excitement is a vampire and it sucks the life out of me. I haven’t been able to figure out why or what the root cause is. As a practitioner of various healing modalities it’s so much easier for me to help others see their own gaps than my own. Thank goodness for my tribe of amazing women. I can count on a good conversation.
The big truth that I uncovered is that I don’t celebrate anything I accomplish or succeed at. Nothing. Ever. I think about it a little bit and share it with some people in my life but that’s it. I haven’t ever gotten excited about stuff. Who knows why? At some point I decided that celebration was unnecessary and that decision is limiting me today. I have recently finished my Masters degree, paid off my debt, decluttered all kinds of stuff from the basement, joined a belly dance class, and so much more! How can I not celebrate all these things? I dunno…it feels weird to do it. Almost as if it’s not good enough or something.
Why would the Universe bring me more success…no matter how hard I worked for it…if all I ever saw in my life was hard work and failure and the lack of success? It feels really awkward to celebrate myself but I have decided that I will celebrate every single little thing that even remotely resembles success every day starting right now. I have told my family I’m doing this and also declared it to the world at large through the awesomeness that is Facebook. I warned them that I may get annoying and they told me to “get annoying!”
All of a sudden I am excited and it’s not sucking the life out of me. Yahoo!! Celebrate with me world! How do you like to celebrate your successes?